Set adrift in a sea of...fill the blank

Jane Eyre

2006-11-26T11:30:00.000-08:00

so I sit indoors, hopelessly staring out at the falling snow that's keeping me from Capilano College and my Jane Eyre tech rehearsal. I shake my fist at you snow!

Speaking of Jane Eyre, it's my class' praticum show this year and it goes up next weekend. November 30th, December 1st and 2nd at 8pm and a 2pm matinee on the 2nd as well. It's very simple, done in the studio with minimal sets and costumes, just focused on the story and the music. Should be good, come check it out if you can, it's by donation.

Also, on the 5th we have our term-end extravaganza at 8 as well. Everyone in our class performs a solo and we do a group number or two and all our dances(tap, ballet and jazz). We're doing a CATS combo and a WSS combo for jazz, excerpts from The Nutcracker for Ballet and an acoustic tap number. Should be good! so come check it out if you can!

let me tell you why I suck

2006-11-19T23:17:00.000-08:00

Two posts in one day, look at me go...

so I'm procrastinating doing my work and looking through old things on my computer...pictures, poems, convos, etc... I find a reference in an old conversation I had with a friend to my livejournal and I'm like "oh yeah!" so I go check out my archives, back to 2004. I read every post between then and my last one(august 2005) and I realized something...

I HAVEN'T F*#KING CHANGED! I was struggling with the same problems then as I am now! What the hell is that about? No wonder I feel down sometimes, it's because I'm not going anywhere. This was 2 years ago! It always comes back to the same shit: "what am I doing?", "stop my bad habits", "get better, work harder"...always the same and I just don't do it... I JUST DON'T DO IT. Simple as that. I know all the things that will make me a better person, a better performer, a better son, friend, student...So why can't I do them?

WHY
CAN'T/
WON'T
I
DO
THEM
?

what am I so scared of....

Grey Cup Sunday

2006-11-19T13:39:00.000-08:00

Ah, the championship of the Canadian Football League(or CFL if you will). What brings 2 million canadians together like it? It's funny how football is the number one sport in the USA yet it's basically 2nd class in Canada. Hockey is king and everything else is an afterthought. Some people follow the NBA, some people the CFL. A select few pick MLB while apparently everyone's a poker fan now. Soccer, Lacrosse, Golf, NASCAR, Tennis....all beautiful, valid sports that are shunned in favor of the fastest game on ice. But not on this day! Today's the day we all watch the top 2 teams battle it out for Canadian Football Supremacy.

Here's a secret... I'm not really a hockey fan. I know the rules, I know the teams, I follow it from a distance. I can discuss it intelligently and i'm a Canucks fan but it's not my favorite. It's barely in my top 5. My favorite sports to watch are as follows: Soccer, Track and Field, Basketball, Football and Hockey. It's definitely not in my top 5 to play(mostly because I'm not that good). My favorites to play are : Soccer, Basketball, Volleyball, Track and Football. Golf, Tennis, Hockey, Badminton, and Baseball all have their own place up there.

I suppose the moral of the story is I'm a sports junkie and I miss it. This is the first year in 16 I haven't been on a soccer team of some kind. I used to work off my stress and energy on a field or court or track but now I do it in dance class or acting or singing...it's an entirely different feeling. So if you ever want to kick the ball around, or play catch or go for a run, let me know!

PS GO LIONS GO!

Talented People

2006-11-09T19:37:00.000-08:00

I like to see shows, especially containing people I know. I'm inspired by the work of others because it just gives me the overwhelming desire to perform myself. I saw Godspell last night, featuring such brilliant performers as Danny Balkwill, Darren Burkett, Emily Hyunh and so on. It was a fun show and looked like a blast to be in. The incomparable Daniel Pitout was in the audience, cheering on his former castmates and was in fine form. He's a good man, I enjoy him. Good luck with the ACL! He's currently working on a little show himself called Good, Clean Fun that I am DYING to be a part of but cannot as per my "no shows outside of school" rule...it sucks! It would have been suck a blast, especially because of the amazing people in it...alas, I guess you can't have it all(as much as I'd like to). I'm excited about seeing Fiddler featuring Amanda, Jenn, Iain, Conor etc. and directed by Lalainia. Of course I'd excited about seeing Urinetown, just a fabulous musical event, now featuring Matt Palmer whose work I love and of course T. Neff:-). Hopefully I'll see them both in the next week or two.

Tim's home this weekend! Hooray!

Like the rain

2006-11-05T22:19:00.001-08:00

I had an interesting day today...Dad asked me to drop him off at a family friend's. It was Nick's 80th birthday so I did that. Went in for awhile to say hi, it was lovely, caught up with old family friends. Driving home, I was near Patty's and I realized I hadn't seen her in forever so I dropped by to say hi. VERY good to see her, she's one of my favorite people in the world and I miss her. Went over to PJ's to watch the colts-pats game, had some pizza and chilled. Then I was driving home and for some reason i took robinson instead of north road and ended up at the cemetery...
I don't know why, I never take that way home but there I was so I decided to visit Malcolm and my Grandpa. It was pouring buckets and I probably spent a good half hour there just reflecting...it's been 12 years since my grandpa passed away and come december, it'll be a year since malcolm left us. It seems hard to believe but it felt good to be there and I feel reminded that life is fleeting.
Cleansed by the rain, I sit here thinking of these two special people and everyone else we've lost. Busy as I get and isolated as I may feel or make myself, I love everyone who's a part of my life. I may not see you or we may not talk but I have a place for you in my heart and I hope you know that. Yes, you, the person reading this right now. Thanks for being a part of my story.

Theatre Quiz

2006-10-30T18:46:00.000-08:00

what the heck, I'll give it a shot too:

FAVOURITES (Performed)
Favourite show - Seussical
Favourite Role - Enjolras
Favourite Musical Number - probably Monkey Around or One Day More

FAVOURITES(Seen)
Favourite show - Songs For A New World
Favourite Role - Steve Maddock and Danny Balkwill in Songs, Tim as the Cat In the Hat
Favourite Musical Number - Gaston in Beauty and the Beast, Footloose Finale at TUTS

ONSTAGE MOMENTS
Funniest onstage moment- When Tim almost fell to his death in Les Mis(it was funny)
Scariest onstage moment - Being Enjolras when I couldn't sing

MOST...(Performed)
Most challenging Musical Number (vocally) - Singing Seussical with no voice, most of Enjolras' bits
Most challenging Musical Number (choreographically) - I haven't really done a dance show yet...I'm sure it'll be something from the Wiz but we're doing a West Side combo in jazz right now that's kicking my ass
Most challenging Show - Les Miserables
Most boring Show -Female Transport
Most fun Cast - Seussical
Most boring Cast - Haven't really had one
Most predictable Casting - Wickersham Brother
Most Unlikely Casting - Enjolras because I got the part 2 days before we went up...but I wasn't really cast so nothing yet.

Who would you be?

2006-10-22T14:52:00.000-07:00

Another sunday has come and the weekend disappeared. Time seems to be flying doesn't it? It's almost freakin' Halloween and what follows Halloween? November! Followed not long after by the end of a semester and Christmas. Now THAT'S a scary thought... Working lots(well as much as I'm realistically able) which is about 3 nights a week. It's stressing me out a little because of the amount of school I have to do so...we'll see what happens. Time management and self-motivation have never been my strongest suits.

Still trying to figure out a halloween costume. I have lots of ideas but nothing solid yet...any thoughts?

Just so fresh and clean

2006-10-17T22:37:00.000-07:00

I honestly don't have much to say. I just thought I'd say hello. Life consists of school and work so I don't have anything exciting to share. I'm not in any shows this term(except for Jane Eyre) so I haven't had to deal with the insane school schedule so I'm filling it with work. The money is nice but it's draining! Gotta pay the bills tho, a student loan wouldn't be my friend so I'm trying to stay away from that.

I don't know why I don't apply myself. It's not that I don't try because I obviously almost always do when it comes down to it but it's always just enough. Good. Decent. The Usual...I'd love to be fantastic or amazing or even just great but I have trouble putting in the time to get there. In my mind, I'm a pretty good actor, a decent singing and a passable dancer(I learn fast at least). I'd like to improve all 3 substantially but it'll take hard work..hence why I'm at school right? But you only get out what you put in and I'm not putting in enough to be fantastic. I'm not looking for over-night miracles, I know it will take time but I have to start somewhere...so my question is what holds me back?

PS I went over to Vic last weekend to see Timothy and the boys...they're doing exceptionally well and it was a good visit. Wish I had more time to spend with them but that's the way it goes.... The place is really nice and they're making a great start of it over there. I hope it keeps up in the same manner. I'll try and get over again soon!

I think and think and think....just think!

2006-10-07T17:01:00.000-07:00

I'm finding myself returning to my intellectual self more these days...not in terms of school persay, but more in the terms of self-analysis and constant thought. I'm aware that it's oxy-moronic to say constant thought because I mean, aren't we all? I'm referring to the type of constant thought that's concious work. The thought that takes events or situations and scans them, links them , tries to solve or reason them out. I like it. The summer months often have the effect of turning me into someone who spends too much time partying and working and thus I tend to neglect the introspective side of myself. I've had some good chats lately and I have been happy with the things I've had to say and the things I've discovered, both about myself and other people. I don't feel the need to go into detail about it right now but I will someday.
In a nutshell, as similar as we all are to each other, I don't think I'm like anyone else. Take that for what you will because I take it in my own way.

The bottom line is: good or bad, there's no one like me.

back to front

2006-09-27T18:32:00.000-07:00

SO I deleted my last post not because of negative commentary or anything, but because I thought it was out there long enough and didn't need to hang around the public domain any longer.

What's new...school is loads of work this year. Scenes and monologues to memorize, music to learn, choreography to retain, Jane Eyre to plow through...I feel your pain Krammage. Not to mention the 3 shifts I work at Joey's(usually Thursday, Saturday, Sunday) which don't leave an exceptional amount of free time. I'm feeling the need to just have 2 weeks off somewhere far away. Already. It's not even October yet!

It's not all whining tho. I enjoy my classes this year, enjoy the material and the subjects(except verbing...I hate verbing). Joey's is a great place to work, no complaints there. Just complaining for the sake of complaining I guess. I haven't seen much of anyone, I hope everyone's doing well.

I'm planning on heading over to see Tim and the boys sometime in October so look for me in Vic then

Let's Play a Blogging Game

2006-09-12T19:54:00.000-07:00

I stole this from my good friend Lauren Kramm whom I love forever and ever!

Lets Play A Blogging Game
"I know this is the second post in a day but I remembered a fun little blog game I thought of a few days ago and thought I would post it!!!Okay here's how it goes.All of you reading this, Pick 5 words that you think describes me best.( words can't be repeated more than once if someones already left a comment using words you wanted to use) and leave a comment on this post. Then copy and paste this onto your blog and we'll all do the same.Peace out FOLKS!"

ok, you can all read! hit me with your best shot(or don't...)

Op-Ed

2006-09-03T11:42:00.000-07:00

Reputations We all have them, whether we're aware of it or not. I, for one, definitely know I have one...or a couple. It depends who you ask I suppose. There's the Legend crap...which I'm trying to leave behind but pretty unsuccessfully(that's based on my own choices so no complaining). There's a reputation at Cap of course, there's a reputation in Coquitlam, there's a reputation among people you don't even know who've heard about you for some odd reason. The theatre world is so small, everyone talks about everyone and who's doing what and what so-and-so's up to. I'm not all that familiar with it because I don't know an exceptional number of the theatre community yet but I know about it...by reputation. Go figure.

A close friend of mine has recently informed me that he's getting engaged. Now this is is very exciting news and I'm more than happy for him. He's a fantastic person and I wish him nothing but the best. The catch is he's known her for approximately 7 weeks, he met her in Italy on a cultural exchange and she's Brazilian. You may call him rash but to hear him talk about her, I have no doubts that it will work out. It totally reaffirms my faith in love and magic. I've always been a big believer that love just happens. Relationships, they take work but love, it just happens. This seems to support my belief right? So I ask myself why do I spend time cultivating and pursuing relationships with people when I know that they're destined for friendship? in case I'm wrong? Because I get lonely? Because I can? They all seem pretty selfish reasons and get me a little down... And don't comment and tell me: " you'll find someone, they're out there" because I know that, that's not the point. ...
So what is the point of this? I'm not sure to be honest, it was just on my mind on this sunday morning.

Post Script. Timothy just finished his run of "This Is Our Youth" and he was brilliant. I saw it 3 times and he was excellent all 3 times. I'm biased, definitely but I'm also very proud and I want to say congratulations to him. Second, if you missed it(which you shouldn't have since it ran for 3 weeks), shame on you because you missed a tremendous acting performance. Timmy J, you inspired me to want to act again(if only to be better than you once more) so...thanks.

september already?

2006-08-30T17:50:00.000-07:00

So here I sit on a wednesday evening, contemplating the beginnings of a new school year...and unfortunately I find myself totally un-inspired. One of the only reasons I want to go is so I can stop working the ludicrous amount I did this summer. I feel good about it because I saved some money and such...but it's all gonna be gone come september when I pay for tuition so that's frustrating. I miss acting...singing and dancing as well, especially when I watch other people on stage( I've seen some good stuff this summer, well done everyone!) but I'm having those "I don't know if it's for me" things. I'm sure I'll be gung-ho about it next week, nothing to fret about.

I made this blog because I figured it was a good way to keep in touch with people who are leaving or busy. Especially my soon-to-be-across-the-water twin brother Timothy. So here's to trying to keep it updated: *cheers*